Moving my blog!

If you want to continue to follow me come on over to https://overwhelmedheart.wordpress.com!!  It’s gonna be good stuff!

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let’s get real

Ok, it’s time to get real, y’all.  I haven’t been myself.  I haven’t been working out consistently.  I haven’t been eating well.  I just plain haven’t been good to myself.  And that’s just not good.  I debated over writing about this because, frankly, it’s embarrassing.  Most people don’t like to just put themselves out there like this.

Let’s start from the beginning.  I have tendinitis and bursitis in my right knee.  I haven’t ran for almost 2 months and very sparingly before that as I was trying to heal myself.  People who don’t run would always ask me why I did it so much and for so long.  Now, that I can’t, I know for sure that it, for the past four years, has been my happy place and stress relief.  I became an unmotivated person.  Since I couldn’t run… I pouted.  I decided somewhat unconsciously that I just wouldn’t do anything because I didn’t enjoy it as much.

Thankfully, the past few weeks I have slowly but surely been pulling myself to out of my slump and back to the gym.  A devo by She Reads Truth about Naomi really pulled me back to reality.  I hadn’t just been unhappy about my lack of motivation it was also that other things weren’t happening on my time.  Sometimes I forget or choose to ignore that none of this is up to me.  I just have to learn to let go and turn it all over to God.  He’s got my back no matter what.

naomi

overwhelmed

o·ver·whelm (vr-hwlm, -wlm)
tr.v. o·ver·whelmed, o·ver·whelm·ing, o·ver·whelms

1. To surge over and submerge; engulf: waves overwhelming the rocky shoreline.

2. a. To defeat completely and decisively: Our team overwhelmed the visitors by 40 points.

b. To affect deeply in mind or emotion: Despair overwhelmed me.

3. To present with an excessive amount: They overwhelmed us with expensive gifts.

4. To turn over; upset: The small craft was overwhelmed by the waves.

This word is the only word that, if only given only one word, I can use to describe myself. I am one who feels deeply. I am passionate. I am emotional. I am empathetic. I am convicted. I love fiercely and wholly. I am a child of God overwhelmed by His love for me!

I had been wanting to start a new blog aside from my running blog (www.running-niki.blogspot.com). I had been struggling with a title. I just didn’t know what to call it…so I didn’t want to publish it yet. I wanted to write about God and how I see Him every day in my life. I wanted to share my perspective and hopefully, get through to a few (or a thousand) people in the process.  I want to share my love for Him and I want you to share right back with me.

For quite a few days the word overwhelmed has been on my mind.  It is an emotion I am very familiar with and one that I experience frequently.  Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a “meh” kind of girl.  Sometimes this can be good and sometimes it can be very bad, but when it is a good kind of overwhelmed it is an amazing feeling.  One of the most often times I am overwhelmed is during worship.  Something about the music, seeing hands lifted in praise, and all of our voices joined together worshiping Him  just touches me right in the heart.  I usually can’t control my emotions and just start crying right there.  I can’t help it.  As much as I’d like to hold it in so everybody doesn’t see me with my “ugly cry face” and the blotchiness that comes afterwards, I can’t do it.  So the tears just start falling, like rain…and joy overwhelms me.  I know that is the Spirit within me is being stirred up.  So here I am with Overwhelmed Heart as my title.  I kinda like it and I think it fits me perfectly. Join me as I live out my journey to go and make disciples as we are all called to do.  And love Jesus with all my heart and soul…