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Ok, it’s time to get real, y’all. I haven’t been myself. I haven’t been working out consistently. I haven’t been eating well. I just plain haven’t been good to myself. And that’s just not good. I debated over writing about this because, frankly, it’s embarrassing. Most people don’t like to just put themselves out there like this.
Let’s start from the beginning. I have tendinitis and bursitis in my right knee. I haven’t ran for almost 2 months and very sparingly before that as I was trying to heal myself. People who don’t run would always ask me why I did it so much and for so long. Now, that I can’t, I know for sure that it, for the past four years, has been my happy place and stress relief. I became an unmotivated person. Since I couldn’t run… I pouted. I decided
somewhat unconsciously that I just wouldn’t do anything because I didn’t enjoy it as much.
Thankfully, the past few weeks I have slowly but surely been pulling myself to out of my slump and back to the gym. A devo by She Reads Truth about Naomi really pulled me back to reality. I hadn’t just been unhappy about my lack of motivation it was also that other things weren’t happening on my time. Sometimes I forget or choose to ignore that none of this is up to me. I just have to learn to let go and turn it all over to God. He’s got my back no matter what.
o·ver·whelm (vr-hwlm, -wlm)
tr.v. o·ver·whelmed, o·ver·whelm·ing, o·ver·whelms
1. To surge over and submerge; engulf: waves overwhelming the rocky shoreline.
2. a. To defeat completely and decisively: Our team overwhelmed the visitors by 40 points.
b. To affect deeply in mind or emotion: Despair overwhelmed me.
3. To present with an excessive amount: They overwhelmed us with expensive gifts.
4. To turn over; upset: The small craft was overwhelmed by the waves.
This word is the only word that, if only given only one word, I can use to describe myself. I am one who feels deeply. I am passionate. I am emotional. I am empathetic. I am convicted. I love fiercely and wholly. I am a child of God overwhelmed by His love for me!
I had been wanting to start a new blog aside from my running blog (www.running-niki.blogspot.com). I had been struggling with a title. I just didn’t know what to call it…so I didn’t want to publish it yet. I wanted to write about God and how I see Him every day in my life. I wanted to share my perspective and hopefully, get through to a few (or a thousand) people in the process. I want to share my love for Him and I want you to share right back with me.
For quite a few days the word overwhelmed has been on my mind. It is an emotion I am very familiar with and one that I experience frequently. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a “meh” kind of girl. Sometimes this can be good and sometimes it can be very bad, but when it is a good kind of overwhelmed it is an amazing feeling. One of the most often times I am overwhelmed is during worship. Something about the music, seeing hands lifted in praise, and all of our voices joined together worshiping Him just touches me right in the heart. I usually can’t control my emotions and just start crying right there. I can’t help it. As much as I’d like to hold it in so everybody doesn’t see me with my “ugly cry face” and the blotchiness that comes afterwards, I can’t do it. So the tears just start falling, like rain…and joy overwhelms me. I know that is the Spirit within me is being stirred up. So here I am with Overwhelmed Heart as my title. I kinda like it and I think it fits me perfectly. Join me as I live out my journey to go and make disciples as we are all called to do. And love Jesus with all my heart and soul…