Ok, it’s time to get real, y’all. I haven’t been myself. I haven’t been working out consistently. I haven’t been eating well. I just plain haven’t been good to myself. And that’s just not good. I debated over writing about this because, frankly, it’s embarrassing. Most people don’t like to just put themselves out there like this.
Let’s start from the beginning. I have tendinitis and bursitis in my right knee. I haven’t ran for almost 2 months and very sparingly before that as I was trying to heal myself. People who don’t run would always ask me why I did it so much and for so long. Now, that I can’t, I know for sure that it, for the past four years, has been my happy place and stress relief. I became an unmotivated person. Since I couldn’t run… I pouted. I decided
somewhat unconsciously that I just wouldn’t do anything because I didn’t enjoy it as much.
Thankfully, the past few weeks I have slowly but surely been pulling myself to out of my slump and back to the gym. A devo by She Reads Truth about Naomi really pulled me back to reality. I hadn’t just been unhappy about my lack of motivation it was also that other things weren’t happening on my time. Sometimes I forget or choose to ignore that none of this is up to me. I just have to learn to let go and turn it all over to God. He’s got my back no matter what.