what’s on the horizon

Do you enjoy every sunrise and sunset as I do?  Do you look at it and know the beauty of our Creator?  Most days it brings tears to my eyes to see the horizon, to know that His mercies are new every day.  Not some days when He feels like it.  Not only on weekends.  Not only when I am doing my best to be His child here on Earth. Every. Single. Day.

That brings me to this.  I have felt a nudging in my heart.  That nudging has brought me to the conclusion that this is something God keeps putting in front of me for a reason.  He is in this, as He is in all things.  I try to not make huge life decisions without Him.  I say “try” because sometimes I fail and my selfishness takes over.

holy yoga

So, this thing that I’m going to do, or think I’m going to do, is Holy Yoga.  I am going to be an instructor.  It is my passion to lead other women in loving themselves and their bodies exactly where they are in a Spirit-filled atmosphere.

I have no formal yoga training.  I only practice at home. I am humble in all aspects of yoga (and ministering – this is scary to me).  But, I am willing to trust and I am willing to learn.  If there is one thing I can say positive about myself it’s that I am coach-able.

Therefore, I am taking up this journey.  I am going where the Spirit leads me, even if it is into deep, unknown waters.  I am trusting.  I am trusting in His timing.  I am trusting in His provision.  I am trusting in His sovereignty.

Have you ever practiced Holy Yoga? Where do you feel the Spirit leading you this year?  What are your new scary endeavors?

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she shares truth: titus

It’s no secret that I read #SheReadsTruth every morning for my devotion.  It’s no secret that I love their content.  I love how I can relate.  I can make sense of what the Bible says about some things.  At last, it’s not all just old school information that cannot be applied to my life, here and now. Every now and then, they give us readers a chance to share our take on it.  We are just finishing up a study on Titus.

Titus 2:3-5 says

Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine.  They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled.

Say what?  Now, y’all know I am neither married nor a mother so this is difficult for me to even comprehend being as “independent” as I am.  I mean this sounds good and all, but where do I fit in? Well, turns out we are talking about spiritual mothers/mentors and I just happen to have a mentor. She has taken me on to mentor in all things life and Jesus-related and I learn more and more from her every time we meet. She reminds me when it is really just the enemy sneaking into my head that is making my life so difficult.  She opens my eyes when I am feeling frustrated or restless to the bigger picture.  She guides me with Scripture and past conversations with other women.

Truth is:  as much as we’d like to be “not of this world”, we are in it…at least, for now.  We need some guidance as to how to navigate this life so that we are not “reviling” (this means speaking abusively, according to the internet) the Word. My mentor and I have done everything together from lunch to exercise classes to meeting at her house and mine.  Our time together has been priceless.  I feel that she has helped me to grow in so many ways.  I honestly don’t know where I would be in my walk without her.

So I say all that to say this, Scripture speaks to each one of us in different ways.  I may not have a husband and kids, but that does not mean that I don’t need guidance from someone on how to do life.  It seems that society (at least in the South) doesn’t take too well to single women.  That we aren’t “doing our part” or fulfilling our lives.  Sometimes that makes me feel less than.  When on Mother’s Day everyone talks about how great mothers are and how they have the most important job in the world, I am sad, for I am not a mother…dare I say, yet?  Will I ever be?  I don’t know but I do know that whatever God has planned for me will come into play in His time, not mine, not society’s, and I will be ready and my mentor has played a huge role in that, along with the other people in my life that love me.

Do you have a mentor or spiritual mother?  How do you spend time together?

what am i running from?

If you grew up in church, or even just in the South, you know the story of Jonah and the big fish.  All I remember is Jonah being swallowed but by a giant fish and living in his belly for a while before getting out.  Until recently, I had thought he fell off the ship.  I guess they soften things for kids, because he was actually thrown off…because he asked to be.  Yep, cast overboard of his own decision.

Doesn't this look sweet?
Doesn’t this look sweet?

Why?  Let’s go back to the beginning.  Jonah was commanded by God to go to Nineveh and preach, but guess what?  Jonah didn’t want to do that.  Nope.  He ran away from God!  What was he thinking?  Can you actually do that?  Instead of going to Nineveh(Middle East), he jumped on a ship heading the opposite direction to Tarshish(present day Spain).

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Then, a giant storm came and Jonah asked to be “cast off” because he knew that this raging storm had come.  The rest is history, he was swallowed by a fish and then later spat out after promising he would make good on what was asked of him.

So this got me thinking.  God is not just going to let me just run away.  No.  He is going to pursue me with his relentless, passionate, absolutely overwhelming love.  (Who doesn’t want to be pursued??)

I self-sabotage.  I think I know what is the right thing for me.  I try to control my life.  What a crazy thought.  What have I been running from?  Where have I been afraid to go that I was being called?

There are things I have put off and put off.  I have, in my humanness, avoided what I knew I should or should not be doing.  Honestly, I just didn’t trust that I was capable of what he was asking of me.  So, maybe all that struggle, all that heartache, all the trying to control was me in the belly of the fish.  God was waiting for me to surface, waiting for me to let go,  waiting for me to give in and do what he has put me here to do.

What have you run from?

How did God bring you back to where he wants you?

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